my room my life

hi.

ive been living in my apartment away from my friends and i mean a long way from any of my friends' place for about two years now, take about 3 months.

and its still a mess. my sis has been living here since three months ago. and its still a mess.

at the very least i need someone who'll make my live a little bit orderly. YAYA! hehehe

but needing someone is only half a relationship. i need someone needing me too. but not too much.

know what i mean?

i want someone to stay not because he needs me but because he wants to.

a lot of people think i do have a strong personality, even when i was scrawny. baka nagulat o nabigla, o hindi lang ako kayang sakyan.

but to tell you frankly i only reflect ones insecurities if they do have that, or if they let it surface more than the need(?) to know me.

its like... know me if you dare...

but if i seem aloof, it might be that i am human too. i have insecurities, like most human beings. i dont have some magic stone to swallow or just change in a phone booth somewhere (as if they have phonebooths nowadays.. everyone has a mobile phone! - paano na lang si kal-el aka supah man) to be more superior, or at least make you feel inferior (sometimes its just perception nga)

ewan. was in an exhibit opening awhile ago.

miss the days when all you have to do is put on makeup and a costume and for an hour or two be someone else. and be applauded (maybe because you were good at being someone else, or you convinced people or something)

maybe we all want to be appreciated because were us. simple because were us. i'm me. kalat and all.

you know?

-not another scorpio