what?

Somehow, i don't know how lucky i am. was. whatever.

i used to look under age till about 25, that was when i came back from the states.

when i got back home, time caught up with me. much like making up for lost time, it seems like time didn't get a visa and through the improbability of me getting one on November 1995, when the whole US government was closed because the first world congress didn't balance their budget, didn't bother to get one.

luck was on my side then, the US embassies opened along with the post office since they are income generating and therefore didn't need the approved national budget. and i got a J1 Visa in a 10-day window in late 1996 without setting foot in the embassy.

great!

so when i came back after about two years of living alone in the US getting my masters and working in a US insurance company (part of the fellowship i got). time slowly but surely advanced my age a little each year.

i now look 40ish while being only almost-35. time had a ball thinning my hair and thickening my gut.

and i have two 'lifestyle diseases' gout and diabetes ii.

what really bugs me though is that somehow i feel old. nawala na yung i-can-do-it magic i had before.

maybe i peaked early, but I've always been precocious.

now what do i do?