for S, on your day!

hey s,

its a very OLD song
but somehow it sings of what i feel sometimes

-notanotherscorpio

PAIN

The thoughts I have of you I treasure
The good times and the bad, we'll share forever more
Somehow, you've changed and you just didn't make it through
But I believe that one day, you'll have to know
That I'm still in love with you

At times we couldn't understand each other
And though we tried we couldn't keep from fallin'
Somehow, somewhere our love had lost its way
And now I feel it's over, it's hard to say
But I love you just the same

REFRAIN:
It's been so long since I had you by my side
I don't even know what to say or do
I tried so hard to get you off my mind
But I love you still try to understand
When I'm all alone...
I still can feel the pain you've left behind

The thoughts I have of you I treasure
The good times and the bad, we'll share forever more
Somehow, you've changed and you just didn't make it through
But I believe that one day, you'll have to know
That I'm still in love with you

At times we couldn't understand each other
And though we tried we couldn't keep from fallin'
Somehow, somewhere our love had lost its way
And now I feel it's over, it's hard to say
But I love you just the same

REFRAIN:
It's been so long since I had you by my side
I don't even know what to say or do
I tried so hard to get you off my mind
But I love you still try to understand
When I'm all alone...
I still can feel the pain you've left behind

Thoughts I have of you I'll always treasure
The good times and the bad we'll share forever more
Somehow, somewhere our love will find a way
But I believe that one day
I'll hear you say that you
Love me all the way

continued part 2

Seeing you this evening was weird

Not that I didnt expect it.

Later today i confirmed that it was somehow your doing, But you didn't think I'd make the effort seeing what FF has to offer.

anyways, maybe you didnt know me

things to do

things i've to do this year:

have a meaningful relationships with people. not that i have many of those, but i still have to reduce the pakikisama factor bordering on ka plastikan.

simplify some more. ive a ton of stuff (non electronic/electric) mostly paper and momentos.

write. ive done a lot of programs and technical stuff but not documented them.

write. document my life electronically, and not clutter my place with pieces of paper.

take chances. i grew up, and grew old. old enough to be afraid to take chances. its about time to be risky, and manage risk.

be open. my last relationship ended in 2000. and ive the longest crush on a friend that has officially ended last year, but somehow, managed to linger from time to time (the crush[feeling], not the friend). I've two different prospects, nothing serious, but simplification is my priority.

do my best. time for payback.

dont deny anything

Wag Na Wag Mong Sasabihin
[ Kitchie Nadal ]

May gusto ka bang sabihin
Ba’t ‘di mapakali
Ni hindi makatingin
Sana’y ‘wag mo na itong palipasin
At subukang lutasin
Sana’y sinabi mo na

REFRAIN
Iba’ng nararapat sa akin
Na tunay kong mamahalin

CHORUS
Oh, huwag na huwag mong sasabihin
Na hindi mo nadama itong
Pag-ibig kong handang
Ibigay kahit pa kalayaan mo

Ano man ang iyong akala
Na ako’y isang bituin
Na walang sasambahin
‘Di ko man ito ipakita
Abot-langit ang daing
Sana’y sinabi mo na

[Repeat REFRAIN]
[Repeat CHORUS]

At sa gabi, sinong duduyan sa ‘yo
At sa umaga, ang hangin ang hahaplos sa ‘yo

Oh oh

[Repeat CHORUS]

continued

Somehow writing it down, will validate it.

Friend, I miss you.

I think we will always think of you and Galera during holy week.

I havent seen you in 2 months. and we havent talked in six.

Text messages dont count since they provide only partial contact, and we can not sure of the identity of the person holding the mobile.

I also know that you did like me for the longest time, except that I'm not in a body you prefer.

Friends always ask me why did we hook up?

"He doesnt like me."

I always say, when we're so old that body types dont count, maybe we'll have a relationship. Say in 10-15 years.

-to be continued