not again!!!????

Monday, October 18, 2004

seasons

ever since puberty the third or fourth quarter of the year, are always low times for me.
maybe its the season.
or its hibernation time.

some years its not even noticeable.

and there are years like this one. maybe because i'm growing old and alone. (note to self: go back to QC)

or i should find a mate.

anyways, i got a txt message a few days ago inviting me to the opening of this new bar in makati. its actually a hotel bar and all i saw was pure alta. the jologs that i am never appreciated this alta (alta de sociedad) thing. and i left about two hours later.

anyways

Saturday, October 16, 2004

realization

hey,

somehow i just realized, after almost 15 years since graduating, that my high school life was a bit boring compared to others in my batch.

not that i told them of my very few escapades...

-not another scorpio

Thursday, October 14, 2004

the crystal

lately ive been wearing a quartz crystal pendant i bought a few years back. on a leather strap i bought at beads and things.

it seems to attract you-know-what. it happened twice at the spa (on a single visit, once before the swedish massage session, and one after). of course i didnt go all the way, although it would be nice to be a slut once in a while. it happened again last night at the gym. i was sweating it out in the sauna after adding 15lbs to all my weights (my trainor doesnt really care, he has his own "leg" problems to solve). when this nice looking guy (he was nice looking until he spoke- in a semi-nasal twang and his teeth are stained) tried to take "it" out.

it wasnt meant to be. *whew* close call

-not another scorpio

Sunday, October 10, 2004

blast from the past, and then some

i had a headache after waking up this morning at 11. realized i went home at 530 in the morning talking to high school classmates. i just realized my life is boring. high school life that is. ok not boring... just too nice.

you kow how old you are when you start talking about things too gross to talk about in normal hours.

how grown up those topics are, i can not tell.

still. its nice to know you

:)

Friday, October 08, 2004

this didnt come from me

it is true!

sometimes when you cant do anything about a situation, you raise this issue to Whoever is up there and believe that whatever that is that is troubling you, He will take care of.

now i am ready to go on with my lovelife. as soon as i raise it.

he may be reading this but i know him well.

he wont pull any surprises, and he wont say anything about what he feels.
even if he feels nothing.

even if he felt something.

one note:
the key to disarm me is to surprise me. take my punches but in no time ill soften up.
be sensitive, and explicit.
oh, and dont force it. i dont take compliments very well.

-not another scorpio

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

another song

I'm Sorry
bituin escalante

How many times have you walk out that door
How many times have you told me before
How many times have you made me cry once more
And all you have to say was I’m sorry

How many times have you left me with no trace
How many times have you lied to my face
How many times have you done me disgrace
And all you have to say was I’m sorry

And now you’re coming back to me
And all you have to say is I’m sorry
The same old story, can’t you see
And all you have to say is I’m sorry
I guess the greatest irony
It’s time to give you my apology
We’re done and now its history
And all I have to say is I’m sorry

How many times have I planned to go
How many times have I gathered my with
How many times have I wanted to quit
And all you have to say was I’m sorry

And now you’re coming back to me
And all you have to say is I’m sorry
The same old story, can’t you see
And all you have to say is I’m sorry
I guess the greatest irony
It’s time to give you my apology
We’re done and now its history
And all I have to say is I’m sorry

I won’t let you know, I won’t let you go
Once, many times
I’m done, I’m tired
You lied
I’d rather have you out of my life

And now you’re coming back to me
And all you have to say is I’m sorry
The same old story, can’t you see
And all you have to say is I’m sorry
I guess the greatest irony
It’s time to give you my apology
We’re done and now its history
And all I have to say is I’m sorry
I’m sorry...

about me, this week

Things i picked up from yahoo. something about scorpios and me in particular

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An intimate partner is behaving in an unpredictable and distressing fashion. You can't stand it when your love life isn't on steady ground. Perhaps the reason your beloved is acting up is that they feel you place more importance on material goods than emotional concerns. The next time you spend time together, focus on what your partner is feeling, rather than what they're spending. The tension between you will soon dissolve.

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Chapter 1: The Sun - Your Ego Structure

SUN IN SCORPIO

Control is the main ingredient in life for you. You are strong-willed, thorough, passionate and powerful. You are courageous and completely willing to go it alone when necessary. You tend to have a rather serious outlook on life, always probing, looking for the depths. Your life becomes more meaningful when you learn to be truly forgiving, when you control your sexual nature without repressing it. Strive to overcome envy, jealousy and possessiveness. Your intense, all or nothing attitude is very useful under some circumstances but all of life is not a battlefield. You turn that force to a high channel at some time in life and the search for meaning becomes a spiritual quest.


MERCURY IN SAGITTARIUS

Your mind naturally moves toward the big picture. You are always looking "over the hills and far away". You are independent in thought while honestly thinking that you are the mainstream standard of life. You think you are "telling it like it is" but the truth of the matter is you are telling it like "it ought to be". There is a moralizing, impulsive and propagating side of whatever you assert. You usually miss details that others feel important, but the breadth of your vision and the joy and lightheartedness of your attitude encourages people to be open to what you say. When you adjust to new circumstances in life, you do so briefly, always holding onto the picture of how things should be. Your vision improves when you are able to face how things really are without discarding your values.



Tuesday, October 05, 2004

nothing to do

instead of saying i miss my old self, i'd say i look forward to the changes.

i

Saturday, October 02, 2004

and now a few words of thanks

bloggie,

Last term i got two 4.0's. that's really nothing to sneeze at since one of them is a REALLY hard subject - Advanced Financial Management.
Why am I happy when I got two 4.0's ? i'm green blooded.

also apparently my schools basketball team isn't bad too.

Congrats.

Thanks for everything.

-not another scorpio