Fever has broken.
Surrender to the feeling of helplessness, of rising body heat and sweaty palms.
That was a week ago, not its just a slight sore throat, and cough and colds. Dang booger forms every other hour.
so I think I fell in love, but I've accepted that the feeling isn't mutual.
dang boogers.
-not another scorpio
I dont know if it is a particularly Filipino phenomena, but lagnat sa loob, literally "internal fever" is lately driving me crazy.
It all started last week, after the major exam, the weather wasn't helping me answer those darn questions since it rained the whole freaking day! Since then there was a deep feeling of my eyes being too hot, and my body feeling heavy all the time (ok, heaviER). Three days ago, it has progressed to my now bedroom voice, coughing hard (barking is more like it) once in a while.
The more you try to avoid getting sick, the more it hits you hard. OK, not that hard but I'd rather take it hard and get it over with once and for all. But this darned fever just creeps slowly like a festering wound.
My usually loud voice is hushed into a Inday Garutay like deep, hoarse growl. And I cant do the things I like with much gusto: Singing and eating.
But I'm confident: CHANGE IS ON ITS WAY!
-not another scorpio
happy independence day!
happy fathers day! (sana maligaya ka sa fafah mo!)
Believe me, Ive looked far and wide for a catalyst to start my metamorphosis. (deep? naaah - feeling butterfly? yes!)
And believe it or not i hope this is it. Magic is what happens when you believe. Its not the magic part, i know a lot of people with magic. In my case, I need to believe.
Believe that I matter.
Believe that I deserve to be loved.
Believe that I can do anything.
Another way of looking at reality is not what is, but what we believe it to be. Because no one can tell us what is and what is not. All of us have different realities.
and I have to believe.
I need to.
